hmmmmmmmm

in our world of unprecedented squalor both morally and all around us, the phenomenon of love constantly amazes me. that though there is so much deception the real thing crops up every now and then to wow us and give us hope that perhaps we too wil find the cure for our pain and loneliness.

oh ya. it gives us such hope.

not so long ago a started to love some one.... for reasons of of different standards and standings as regards certain things, i knew it could not work if i wanted to be myself.
i was to settle and save face among men. i mean who wants to be called an old maiden! i dont want to be the scorn of every one in the vicinity esp because they will never tell it to you face to face. but they despise you, maybe just laugh at you or most commonly they refer to you every time they speak of a failures in life.

so yes. i let it go.

so now am here waiting for this other guy to notice that i dont bite. i had a crazy idea about starting to go out alot in a bid to find some one. but wont that just bring more issues ....
but i will be still. after all wer are no all fated to walk the same paths.